I'm lost! I have gone through crazy things in the past few months and with the guidance of a certain someone I thought I was in a good place. I thought that I could trust in the Lord who is supposed to love us. I changed my degree plan because I tbought maybe it was a path where I could make great changes in people's lives like the great changes I thought were happening in my life. I thought I was happy and confident in myself in my job and marriage and in my duty as a mother to my kids. I had convinced myself that I was happy, I knew who I was, and I knew where I was going. In reality I was just trying to live in a world that isn't mine. A world where someone can be just happy every day and be so positive no matter what life throws at you. A world where there is such a perfect marriage you don't have to argue with someone. A world where a man can be the husband I wish I had. A world where you realize that the person you thought cared about you more than required but it...