Sunday afternoon. I'm sitting home with the kids and the puppy while Jason is getting a tattoo for Lily. Merry Christmas and happy anniversary dear! Things have actually been pretty okay lately. No major issues have occurred. Yet I'm still not happy like I think I should be. I continue to wonder what's wrong with me. There are people in this world who are in worse situations than I am. I have my family in good health. I have a house to live. A stable job I just got promoted in. I work very hard for everything we have. To make my family happy and not want for anything. And I'm still not happy. I have been scared of what I may be capable of doing to Grant because his being a 3 year old attitude really sets me on edge. I threw his sippy cup into the kitchen so hard the other night I'm surprised it didn't break. In the moment I really wanted to throw it at him. It breaks my heart because he is just a normal 3 year old. I look at lily who is the light of my life and ...